A beacon of light in this debacle is my sweet daughter– sheltered from all of this ugliness in my womb– and yesterday we had a prenatal appointment. I’ve been extremely worried about the effects my extreme stress would have on Tatum but she’s looking and sounding good. Measurement-wise she’s right where she should be and her heartbeat is strong, as are her frequent movements. The only concern is me. I have lost 5 pounds since the first time I was weighed. Given the circumstances the doctor seemed certain this was a direct result of stress and said I needed an extra 200 food calories a day supplemented with Ensure. On December 2nd I’ll do my glucose test for gestational diabetes.
Because my name is legally Reed [and that’s Adam’s last name as well] that will be Tatum’s surname. I’m debating whether or not to take the ‘Ann’ out of ‘Marisann,’ which I will most likely do seeing as how that was not ny idea in the first place. Her birth certificate will be left blank regarding paternity. Classy I know….but no other child of mine will ever be subjected to this.
With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,