Swamped Sloane

“One of the things I learned the hard way was that it doesn’t pay to get discouraged.  Keeping busy and making optimism a way of life can restore your faith in yourself.” ~ Lucille Ball

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You know it’s mandatory OT when ‘shower’ becomes a scheduled luxury on your to-do list.

BUSY.  See me breaking out the caps, bold, and underline for emphasis?  ‘Busy’ doesn’t even begin to cut it.  I’m swamped.  Two weeks into the production phase [which is a fancy way of saying I’m working independently and no longer in training] of my new job overtime became mandatory.  It’s only a temporary response to a huge product launch but the restrictions on OT have been lifted.  Think 60 hour work weeks.  Yet overtime pay is time and a half so I’m trying not to complain too much.  I continue to remain grateful that I am at a place in my life where I can successfully handle the employment factor of the adulting equation.

Juggling work, motherhood, my business, and recovery isn’t easy.  Sometimes I wonder how I’m still functioning.  Most of the time I’m so exhausted I collapse as soon as my shift ends.  Right now I’m at the point where operating at full capacity and staying busy is the best possible thing for me.  But I know my limits.  If I start getting overwhelmed [in the bad way] I’ll scale back on OT and catch up on sleep.  My eyes stay on the prize….le car.

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I am officially the proud parent of a second grader and preschooler!

Adam and Tatum have settled into their respective school routines.  Both seem to love their teachers.  I’m especially impressed with Adam’s teacher, Ms. D, who has done an amazing job communicating with parents and making learning fun and engaging for her students.  Seeing as how Tatum’s only been in school for a week [three days total] I haven’t had the opportunity to get to know her teachers but I know they’ll be great as well.  The structure and socialization of school is so important for them– especially my son– and I couldn’t be happier for them.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

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Tater 4.5

Happy half birthday, Tatum!  🎉

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My little girl marks the exact halfway point between her fourth and fifth birthdays today.  She is undeniably smart and mature for her young age, yet in many ways she is so childlike and innocent.  I cannot even begin to imagine her making a cross county trip via Amtrak within the next few months…which is exactly what her brother did when he was that age.  The courage, strength, and resiliency of my children blows my mind.

No matter how much I miss Tatum when she’s at her ‘home away from home’ I cannot help but feel grateful.  Our family survived and remained intact.  We came home– both to our city and our house.  That prospect remained uncertain for a very long time.

Precious Tatum, my sweet daughter, I love you so much.  Every day you make me proud.  We all love you to the moon and back.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

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Last day of summer

…and what a fantastic summer it was.

Technology galore!  Adam purchased an Xbox with his own money.  Tatum discovered the joy of [supervised] YouTube. My children can work electronic devices better than I can.

Hot, humid days were spent in air conditioned movie theaters or cooling off in the pool.  The kids stayed up later than they should and slept later than they should.  All of us were lazy at times but no one can say we haven’t earned the right to relax.

The boy child won’t get the joke tomorrow morning with a ridiculously early [by his standards] wake up call.  Luckily school starts half an hour later this year– 8:30am– yet he’s still in for quite the shock.  He’s certainly not dreading school but he is nowhere near as enthused as his sister.  She’s ecstatic.  Her school starts Tuesday.

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Summer memories

Endless thanks to the water park at the Jewish Community Center.  Our family adores the JCC.  I don’t think we would have survived the summer without it.  Between the diving board, lap lanes, water slides, toddler areas, and Holy Cow Cafe– it’s a delight for people of all ages.  We could easily spend all day there.  It’s been a joy watching Adam hone his skills on the diving board and swimming to the bottom of the deep end.  And Tatum frequently ditched her arm floaties for some serious doggie paddling.  Even yours truly did some damage on the water slides.

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Bapa and his grandkids frolic in the pool at our summertime home away from home.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

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Ongoing story

THE NEVERENDING STORY IS COMING BACK TO THE BIG SCREEN!!

Within ten minutes of hearing this glorious news I purchased two tickets.  You best believe we’ll be at the Paradiso on September 4th at 2pm.  I encourage anyone in the Memphis area [or within road trip distance] to buy tickets ASAP because I know they’ll sell out quickly.  There is an additional showing on the 7th if Sunday doesn’t work for your schedule.

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Atreyu and Falcor share a moment.

Being able to share the adventure with Adam means the world to me.  Virtually every single weekend I rented The NeverEnding Story at Blockbuster.  It didn’t matter that I’d seen it a million times, my obsession never dwindled.  I can’t wait to see it on the big screen!  And I just now Adam will love it and become equally obsessed.

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Speaking of all things awesome, Tattoos for Backpacks is back!  Bring a backpack filled with $50 of school supplies to Monster Ink [Hwy 64 or Covington Pike] between August 8th – August 15th and receive a $50 tattoo credit.  Helping local kids start school with all the necessities and scoring some new ink?! Win win.  You can also use the credit for a piercing if tats aren’t your thing.

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John and Sloane take junior high by storm.

I cannot believe my godkids are in middle school!  Seriously?!  Where does the time go?  I remember feeding them macaroni and cheese cups in their high chairs when they were less than a year old.  They look so mature here.  Little Sloane even got her first ‘big girl’ hair appointment, complete with highlights and a venti Starbucks drink.  =)

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Is it my bedroom or is it my office? Both!

The stars aligned to bless me with a new job.  In addition to my business, I will be working as a customer service agent from the privacy of my own home.  Endless thanks to Holly for referring me to this opportunity.  My materials just arrived via FedEx and I begin training Monday.  It’s a full-time job…40 hours, 5 days a week.  Between that and It Works I am no longer stressed regarding finances.  What a relief.  How grateful I am to be my own boss and working from home.  I don’t have to sacrifice time with my children and I still have the freedom to pursue my writing and other endeavors about which I am passionate.

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Memphis skyline

Elvis.  Barbecue.  The First 48.  The odds are ever in my favor that I will hear at least one of these references when I inform a ‘foreigner’ that I reside in Memphis.  Despite the crime and other…divisive issues…plaguing our city, I absolutely adore Memphis.  And I am so proud to call it my home.  Those of us who live here can poke fun at our city.  Those who don’t cannot have that privilege. 😉

If you have ever been a part of Memphis, do not miss You Know You’re From Memphis If… courtesy of our beloved Memphis Flyer.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

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31

Thirty one years ago…on this very day…something miraculous happened…

I was born!!

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My best friend and Soul Sister, Maris, made this birthday collage for me.

What a wonderful birthday it was.  Joey woke me with an early morning call and then I discovered the dozens of comments on Facebook acknowledging my special day.  I was grinning from ear to ear before I even got out of bed.  Because everyone else slept late I went downstairs, drank an ungodly amount of coffee, cranked the rap music, and danced around the kitchen shaking my tailfeather.  Then I took a bubble bath and read Cosmo.  It was glorious.

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My son’s adorable homemade card.

The only festivities on our agenda were a family dinner at Macaroni Grill and a trip to Barnes & Noble.  I stuffed my face and got five magazines.  Win.  I so appreciate all of the calls, texts, messages, and comments I received from my friends.  It is not lost on me how lucky I am to have such incredible people in my life– and how lucky I am to be moving into my third decade.  How grateful I am.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

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Funnies

So my last post was kind of heavy.  Let’s lighten it up a bit.  Here are some memes that made me giggle:

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With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,
Sloane

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Relapse

 

I relapsed. Because I went against my better judgment and placed myself in a precarious situation I started drinking the night before work.  Guess who couldn’t be bothered to attend the next day?  No call, no show, nothing.  I just kept right on hitting the bottle.  Mind you this was a dream job of mine that I absolutely adored.  Once the booze wore off I realized the magnitude of what I’d done by screwing this up….so I drank and drank and drank.

Shortly thereafter I went to a treatment facility.  After spending approximately a month there I left voluntarily– without going into specifics I’ll say there was a situation there that didn’t sit well with me.  I had no plans whatsoever to drink and was heading towards a safe place.  En route I unexpectedly ran into some old friends and it was off to the races.

The next few weeks were so unspeakably horrific I’m not even going to discuss them.  I want to shield my family from the gory details so I’m saving it for the rooms of recovery.  It’s a miracle I’m alive and we’ll leave it at that.

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Why am I so open about my struggles?  I’m sure there are some who would rather me not be so candid and I understand their apprehension.  Every addict or alcoholic has the right to chose how much or how little they divulge about their condition.  It’s a highly personal choice.  Yet I refuse to stay quiet because that would imply shame.  There’s nothing wrong or shameful about me.  I’m not a bad person.  I’m a sick person.  And I think it’s crucial to see that even the sickest people can manage their illness.  People who take steps to fix their problems should be commended.

Addiction is an epidemic.  It’s ruining– and ending– lives and destroying families.  We’re not doing enough as a society to combat this insidious beast.  It’s time to shatter the stigma associated with those affected by alcohol and drugs.  I don’t have any easy answers.  But my sincerest hope is that if I share my story perhaps one person feels a little less alone.  Maybe somebody finds the inspiration they need to get help.  Or maybe an alcoholic’s parent will have a better understanding of the disease that has sucked the soul out their child.  This is my way of taking control of my recovery and telling the monster it won’t win.

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My story’s far from over…but this chapter’s a wonderful one.  I’m happily back home with my family.  I’m clean and sober.  I’m giving my recovery 110% and working my program.  Even though it is not in my best interests to work outside of the home at this point I still have an income thanks to my business and writing.  I have dreams and goals and plans.  Life is good.

With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,

Sloane

 

 

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