March ended 38 minutes ago. Good riddance.
I left my daughter– not even a month old– in Tennessee with my parents to return to California alone. Adam turned four years old. Thanks to the generosity of ‘the department’ I was allowed to attend his birthday party at Round Table Pizza in Atascadero. Ashlyn passed away followed by our sweet Lottie. Friends were made. Friends were lost. A new attorney was obtained. I miss my kids. I miss my kids. I miss my kids. Did I mention I miss my kids?
Life as a whole right now is agonizing….the depression cripples me. I can barely function. Yet I have one area where I am immensely happy. And I deserve this happiness. ‘Boo’ and I made it official and I’m proud to call him my boyfriend. He’s so neat.
I have to pinch myself with him. Choosing appropriate male suitors has never been one of my strong suits. What a welcome change to have an intelligent, stable, and hard working man in my life who treats me with respect. Despite 2000 miles separating us, I can honestly say that [with the obvious exception of being with my children] I’d much rather talk on the phone or Skype with him than do anything else. T0 be able to have somebody so supportive– and encouraging– of my situation means the world to me. I’m not about to let my love life distract me from my mission to save Adam, but I cannot even begin to articulate how wonderful it is to have him on my team. He’s so supportive of my goals and I look forward to what the future holds.
Note to self: post the photos from Chelsea Dean’s photo shoot of Tatum at Neshoba. I also commit to blogging at least once a day until I start to make a dent in all the things on my mind.
Thank God I resume work on Monday. Several days ago I went to the church to talk to M about new developments and the impending Easter rush. As soon as I walked in the Pastor gave me a hug and said “welcome home.” It’s such a comfort knowing that I was missed and am appreciated by my coworkers whom I deeply admire. I can’t wait to get back to my job!
With infinite love, gratitude, and respect,